It is good to think somberly about life. One life, one opportunity, to love, to give,
The Bible says, “A good name is better than precious ointment; and the day of death than the day of one's birth.” (Ecclesiastes 7:1)
Or
“It is better to go to the house of mourning, than to go to the house of feasting: for that is the end of all men; and the living will lay it to his heart.” (Ecclesiastes 7:2)
1992- Grandpa Lloyd dies in a sudden car accident. I loved him but we had an adversarial relationship.
1994- My good friend Kathy dies a slow death. Right before Christmas, after she decorated the house with Christmas decorations, she went to the hospital for an IV because she had gotten dehydrated from the cancer treatment side effects. She never left. One month later they transferred her to hospice and she lingered dying slowly until February 26th at around three in the morning, then her suffering was over.
1996- My high school best friend’s little brother Thomas finally succumbed to cystic fibrosis. We were always pal-ed around with Thomas took him on camping trips and stuff because we never knew which one would be the last. He had an open casket.
1999- Grandpa Burt dies. This one really breaks my heart. I loved this man. My childhood memories are filled with him stooping to my level and playing imaginary games together.
2001- Beverly, my grand mother and the matriarchal glue of my whole family passes away. Once again slow death by cancer. She and I were very similar and shared and understanding that you don’t always get between people. Now the family says I remind them so much of her.
2002- Christine Russell dies. I am still not over this one. She was the only woman who ever hands on MOTHERED me, ever. From the time I dated her son in 1991- 2002 she was my true best friend, though I did not always know it at the time. We even shared an apartment fir a couple years, my two kids she considered her grand kids. One really was. She died of cancer.
I still dream that I am having coffee and talking with these two women on a regular basis.
2005- Jacob Brent Jeffries dies. My son. 8 pounds 6 ounces and five minutes old. I am ready to die now too only I will never kill myself and have all these children to care for.
2006- My Auntie Iva, sister to myGrandma dies rather suddenly. We were close. I spent summers at her house as a kid.
2008- My long time friend Denise Mason dies in a fatal car accident coming down old woman Srings Road across from Chevron.
The Bible says, “A good name is better than precious ointment; and the day of death than the day of one's birth.” (Ecclesiastes 7:1)
Or
“It is better to go to the house of mourning, than to go to the house of feasting: for that is the end of all men; and the living will lay it to his heart.” (Ecclesiastes 7:2)
1992- Grandpa Lloyd dies in a sudden car accident. I loved him but we had an adversarial relationship.
1994- My good friend Kathy dies a slow death. Right before Christmas, after she decorated the house with Christmas decorations, she went to the hospital for an IV because she had gotten dehydrated from the cancer treatment side effects. She never left. One month later they transferred her to hospice and she lingered dying slowly until February 26th at around three in the morning, then her suffering was over.
1996- My high school best friend’s little brother Thomas finally succumbed to cystic fibrosis. We were always pal-ed around with Thomas took him on camping trips and stuff because we never knew which one would be the last. He had an open casket.
1999- Grandpa Burt dies. This one really breaks my heart. I loved this man. My childhood memories are filled with him stooping to my level and playing imaginary games together.
2001- Beverly, my grand mother and the matriarchal glue of my whole family passes away. Once again slow death by cancer. She and I were very similar and shared and understanding that you don’t always get between people. Now the family says I remind them so much of her.
2002- Christine Russell dies. I am still not over this one. She was the only woman who ever hands on MOTHERED me, ever. From the time I dated her son in 1991- 2002 she was my true best friend, though I did not always know it at the time. We even shared an apartment fir a couple years, my two kids she considered her grand kids. One really was. She died of cancer.
I still dream that I am having coffee and talking with these two women on a regular basis.
2005- Jacob Brent Jeffries dies. My son. 8 pounds 6 ounces and five minutes old. I am ready to die now too only I will never kill myself and have all these children to care for.
2006- My Auntie Iva, sister to myGrandma dies rather suddenly. We were close. I spent summers at her house as a kid.
2008- My long time friend Denise Mason dies in a fatal car accident coming down old woman Srings Road across from Chevron.
2008- My Auntie Faye dies also sister to my grandma. Has a fall that unexpectedly leads to her death. This is the woman who was additional my moral compass as a kid. She is also the lady who jumped on beds with me when no one adult was watching.
2008- my husband almost dies of a heart attack.
“Time can bring you down
2008- my husband almost dies of a heart attack.
“Time can bring you down
Time can bend your knee
Time can break your heart
Have you begging please
Begging please”
- Eric Clapton, tears in heaven
I have had my knees bent. Its when you have no more strength to stand.
I have had my knees bent. Its when you have no more strength to stand.
Time with people is precious and short.
“twenty years from now,
you will be more disappointed
by the things you didn't do
than by the ones you did do”-Mark Twain
Love now,
Try now,
Live and give,
now,
nothing is certain
as children believe
The gifts that we receive from others sometimes do not manifest themselves until those people are no longer present in our lives. Sometimes I wonder why someone dies so young, especially when that person enriches the world around him/her, and other times I wonder why an individual lives so long, especially when what they bring into the world is so negative, so harsh, so harmful.
ReplyDeleteYour life has been blessed with richness from the people with whom you share it. Rejoice.